Posted on: 19th of May 2003 | Under: Thoughts & Emotions

Yesterday, I cried. I cried and I didn’t know the reason why. I was just snuggled under my covers, stomach flat on the bed, when tears started blinding me. My mind was completely blank, but it seemed as if I had emotions that needed to be let out. Frustrations? Loneliness? Misery? I couldn’t make it out. All I knew was that my tears were uncontrollable.

I laid there sniffing and sobbing like there was no tomorrow. The irony of it all was hearing Rhett Miller crying out, “Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life?” over and over on the radio. haha. Everything seemed like a joke. Oh, it was a joke. Nobody cries without a reason. I felt silly, senseless and stupefied.

I stood up and stared at myself in the mirror. I just wanted to laugh and slap myself silly! I looked so funny. I was all flushed. My face was as red as a tomato, my eyes were so small that I could hardly see. The worst thought of it all was that I looked like that because I cried without a reason. haha! Lame! o_O;;

I felt great afterwards. Not that I was feeling down in the first place, but I just felt better. Crying for no reason is probably the saddest thing that I’ve ever done, but I liked it. I should try it again sometime. ^_,~;; hehe.

Ahh, a miracle happened yesterday too. I cooked lunch. Yep, I COOKED! hehe. If you know me, you’ll know that I don’t cook. I bake, but I don’t cook. woooh! But, yesterday, mom got me to put on an apron to make some chicken curry. Ahh, yummy! I felt really proud afterwards. The last time I tried to cook, the whole thing tasted bland. haha. So, yeh, I was really happy with my yummylicious dish. ^__^ woohoo!