Posted on: 23rd of May 2004 | Under: Thoughts & Emotions
nostalgia n. a sentimental longing for the past.
I am by far the most nostalgic person that I know. Well… I used to be.
I was one of those people who used to crave for the past. I used to miss everything that was and often craved for the life I had before. Being always on the move, people assumed that I was great at saying goodbye and starting anew. That having moved to different places 5 times, in my almost 21 years of existence, I’m already used to the whole routine. The truth is, I find it more difficult each time.
The most difficult was our last move in 1999. We moved back here to the Philippines after living in another country for over 6 years. I became depressed for some time. I longed for the company of the firends that I left behind. Longed for the memories and experiences. It was tough trying to fit in the new environment that I was forced into. I became miserable.
But life has turned a great 360 degrees eversince. I’ve moved on. I no longer crave for the past. No longer have bouts of depression attacks. No longer cry myself to sleep, wishing I could wake up and be back to where I was some years before. I’ve been happy and I can say that I’m finally 100% settled in.
Who wouldn’t be happy, anyway? I have a great life here. It’s not as comfortable or as luxurious as my life back in the country we lived in before, but there are more reasons for me to be happy here. I’ve been blessed with a wonderful family, great friends and an ever-so-loving person to share my life with. I seriously couldn’t ask for more. ^__^;;
I used to think that I’d forever be the highly nostalgic person that I once was. But I’ve changed. I’m no longer that person and I’m actually happy about it. ^_,~;;
Oh, I drove to Festival today. I can’t wait to get my actual license! I’m dying to drive around the metro already! XP haha!
Anna. 25. 
May 24th, 2004 at 6:44 pm
I’m happy for you… Honestly, I doubt you’d want to come back to Brunei if ever… prolly yeah for a trip or something but living back here? Even I would think twice about it… I’m definitely missing you like 100% percent missing you… hmmm, which reminds me… I’ll call you in awhile… I just hope you’re not busy or sleeping or whatever… My vacation’s gonna come to an end and I’ll be back in Manila to go back to school and start being away from my family again. Gotta start kicking myself in the butt right now… made mistakes within the year that I know I shouldnt have done… Bloody hell! No matter how many times I tell myself this, TIME IS DEFINITELY PRECIOUS!!! Gotta make the most of everything… I’ll see you soon… *mwah* Btw, congrats with driving! Maunahan mo pa si KB! =P hehehe… i love you bestest!
May 25th, 2004 at 4:50 am
some people have a hard time living the present. it’s good that you’ve grown out of being nostalgic because it’s a self-made trap for ourselves. :)
May 26th, 2004 at 11:52 pm
Hey Anna, yeah know what you mean about the nostalgia thing. Always looking for old sites on the internet archive, and sites like SpyMag helps to keep Brunei friends in contact. Good to know you’re still blogging :)
May 27th, 2004 at 2:11 am
"And these are the moments I’ll remember all my life.I found all I’ve waited for and I could not ask for more."
i’m starting to realize that right now….it’s nice to be contended with what you have and happy at the same time.
-im in my office so i finally had the chance to see ur blogs! damn!
May 27th, 2004 at 6:36 am
Whee! We’re both getting our licenses soon!<3
May 27th, 2004 at 12:43 pm
pa drive drive na lang ah.. hehehe :P
I LOVE YOU! =)
May 27th, 2004 at 10:33 pm
It’s said that love makes us a better person. I guess this is one of the most incriminating pieces of evidence I’ve seen. =) Love also makes you forget the past.. or at least think of it as a lesson learned. =) Take care!
June 1st, 2004 at 3:02 pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Have a good one, dear! <333 Hahaha! I just commented on your LJ and sent you an SMS. 8-) Hahaha!
June 2nd, 2004 at 5:21 pm
yeekeee!!!! gosh, me happy for you ’bout that ^___^;;;; must be hard to be nostalgic, but with yeekee-yeekee around, why ask for the past when you have the present and future in front of you? XD nyahahha!
uy ha … nagd-drive na sha! eh pano na yun? so pag me date kayo ni kid, ikaw ang taga-drive? wahahahahhahaa!!! XDDD
June 6th, 2004 at 9:15 pm
That’s awesome that you finally got to a point in your life where you are happy ^^.