Posted on: 22nd of May 2005 | Under: Thoughts & Emotions
My birthday is closing in once again. Every year I find myself pondering over how old I’m getting. Twenty two. I cannot believe I’m already turning 22!
Ok, I’ve been aware for some time that I am actually getting old. A handful of my friends are already out in the real world, settling into their own respective careers. There are some that have moved out of their parents’ house and have started living on their own. There are also those who have marched down the aisle into married-hood.
I was tossing and turning in bed last night. I was restless and I couldn’t get myself to sleep. I found myself pondering over what the future would be like: all the responsibiities that I’ll be faced with. I have to admit that it frightens me a little. What if I things don’t turn out the way I imagine and wish them to be? What if I suddenly wake up and realize that all I ever worked for is not what I really want in life?
Then I realized, there are times when I really do worry too much! I should just let things happen for themselves. Let things fall into place. If they don’t turn out the way I planned, then that’s fine. It won’t be the end of the world. I’ll just have to deal with it then. I should just savour and enjoy my life right now, because I’m confident that I will get through whatever life-bump hits me along the way. Besides, I’ve always believed that He doesn’t burden us with problems we cannot handle. =)
Anna. 25. 
May 22nd, 2005 at 4:05 pm
hm, i think it must be scary to think of going out into the world on yr own.. i’m nearing my graduation and as early as now im plagued by the thought of having so many responsibilities to handle… but yeah i believe that He won’t give me things i can’t handle :D you take care now :)
May 23rd, 2005 at 2:08 am
I tend to worry too much too! About practically everything, it’s exhausting really. Haha. But then, I agree with what you said, maybe if we reminded ourselves more that God won’t give us something we won’t be able to cope with and learn from, then we won’t have much to worry about.
It’s scary thinking about growing up and having more responsibilities, but such is life. We only have to go with the flow. :) Hope you have a great birthday Anna! <3
May 25th, 2005 at 1:19 pm
Haaaay! I’m pretty guilty of this too. You have no idea how much I’ve tossed and turned for the past month! Being back in Brunei is making me think A LOT. Since there’s nothing else to do but think really. Contemplating and reflecting. =P
And yes… He does not burden us with problems we can’t handle. AMEN!!!
I MISS YOU!!! I’ll miss your birthday again this year. But hey! I was with you on your 21st birthday! =) I’ll see you when I get back! =) I LOVE YOU!!!
May 26th, 2005 at 1:07 pm
Anna! How are you? Got a website back up! Hope you can drop by sometime. :)
May 28th, 2005 at 2:42 pm
I absolutely agree. I’m sure you’ll do just fine.
May 31st, 2005 at 4:03 am
i sense the approaching of the so-called quarter-life crisis! ACK!!!! but amen to that, God will always help us up even if our plans fail and all ^^;;;;
… ANG TANDA NA NATIN!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! (i didn’t get your txt btw, maybe you don’t have my number? XD teehee)
June 1st, 2005 at 2:32 am
Hey! It’s the first of June at my place. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. 22 aint all that old. =) We’re only as old as we feel. Have a great one and God bless.
June 1st, 2005 at 7:17 pm
i don’t have your phone number!!!! sooo … HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! me hopes you can get to read this teeheee! X) hope you have a great one!
June 2nd, 2005 at 4:01 am
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANNA! Indeed, the Lord doesn’t give us things we (still) cannot handle. 1 Cor. 10:13! :) Oh don’t worry about growing old. Growing old only means experiencing more of the Lord’s presence and blessings. Happy birthday! God bless! :D