Posted on: 13th of June 2005 | Under: Thoughts & Emotions
Each one of us live our lives, hoping that one day we will feel contented. We all crave to live a meaningful life. A life that, even if we’ve been bruised a thousands times, we still find healing and feel true happiness and love in those around us.
I was looking through my old photos, diaries and scrapbooks yesterday and I could not help the big smile left plastered on my face. I found myself feeling overjoyed because looking back at my past, I realized that I have certainly lived a meaningful life.
I have laughed ’til I cried. I have felt the love, respect and acceptance of those around me. I have danced the night away. I have travelled, visited and have set foot on a handful of beautiful places. I have made friends more than the number of stars I can count in the sky. I have made a hundred and one mistakes, but bravely faced each one to right the wrongs. I have seen the beauty of nature. I have seen the beauty of God’s works. I have been hurt and have cried ’til there were no more tears. I have stood up and have fought for what I believed was right. I have been overly depressed and have intoxicated myself with alcohol to ease the pain. I have given so much love, not just to those around me, but to myself as well. I have been a friend and have reached out to those who were in need of my hand or shoulder. I have overworked myself, but found reward in the happiness of the results. I have accepted God in my life and have served him. I have failed and have cursed life, but always found the true beauty of it afterwards.
I have lived. I have felt contentment. I am happy. I am whole.
So, if I die tomorrow I will not be disappointed. I know that my life was a meaningful one: I have lived and have loved to the best of my abilities. ^^;;
Posted on: 31st of December 2003 | Under: Life & Love
The year 2003, definitely an unforgettable one.
Stressful, grueling, strenous and exhausting, that’s how my year was. It was a tough year, but despite that, things are still well and swell. Love makes you froget all the negative things. Everything’s just great. ^_,~;;
I’m definitely looking forward to the year ahead. Have a wonderful 2004, everyone! God Bless! ^___^;;
<3
Posted on: 30th of September 2003 | Under: Life & Love
Life is indeed full of surprises. Wonderful things seem to happen when I least expect them to. It’s amazing, really. I didn’t go out to plan things, but somehow they’ve fallen perfectly into place.
Despite the exhausting schedule that I have right now, despite all the tiresome work that I’m faced with, life is still full of happy things. Something keeps me going. Something keeps me motivated and inspired.
I’m satisfied and very much grateful. God surely has a way of showering us with our hearts desires and blessings. Mysterious, yet lovely, that’s how He works. ^_^
Instantly, I was reminded of how magical it is to love and be loved. ^_,~;; Everything is great. Life is great.
Bliss, it’s all bliss. ;)
Posted on: 30th of August 2003 | Under: Life & Love
Oh wow, it seems as if I’ve abandoned this site of mine. I’ve been so lazy to update this. Funny thing is, I’m not even really on hiatus. Yeh, I’m still around, just not so active in this blog of mine. haha.
I have been uber busy. The past few weeks have been hectic. We were so caught up with the shooting of our report presentation for our research class that we somehow forgot about our plates. Right now, I have a stack of them on my drafting table, waiting to be done. I have to work twice as much this weekend, since I wasn’t able to finish some past plates. o_O;;
Oh well, that’s my life for you. Hectic and exhausting. Still, I’m not complaining. Life’s still great despite all the tiresome work load. ^_,~;;
Some pictures before I return to silence… XP hehe…
Marlon, Jewelle, Steph and me…
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a recycled pic of my sister and I, taken a couple of months ago.
…and another one… ;)
Posted on: 19th of May 2003 | Under: Thoughts & Emotions
Yesterday, I cried. I cried and I didn’t know the reason why. I was just snuggled under my covers, stomach flat on the bed, when tears started blinding me. My mind was completely blank, but it seemed as if I had emotions that needed to be let out. Frustrations? Loneliness? Misery? I couldn’t make it out. All I knew was that my tears were uncontrollable.
I laid there sniffing and sobbing like there was no tomorrow. The irony of it all was hearing Rhett Miller crying out, “Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life?” over and over on the radio. haha. Everything seemed like a joke. Oh, it was a joke. Nobody cries without a reason. I felt silly, senseless and stupefied.
I stood up and stared at myself in the mirror. I just wanted to laugh and slap myself silly! I looked so funny. I was all flushed. My face was as red as a tomato, my eyes were so small that I could hardly see. The worst thought of it all was that I looked like that because I cried without a reason. haha! Lame! o_O;;
I felt great afterwards. Not that I was feeling down in the first place, but I just felt better. Crying for no reason is probably the saddest thing that I’ve ever done, but I liked it. I should try it again sometime. ^_,~;; hehe.
Ahh, a miracle happened yesterday too. I cooked lunch. Yep, I COOKED! hehe. If you know me, you’ll know that I don’t cook. I bake, but I don’t cook. woooh! But, yesterday, mom got me to put on an apron to make some chicken curry. Ahh, yummy! I felt really proud afterwards. The last time I tried to cook, the whole thing tasted bland. haha. So, yeh, I was really happy with my yummylicious dish. ^__^ woohoo!
Posted on: 14th of May 2003 | Under: Thoughts & Emotions
Time flies. In about 2 and a half weeks, I oficially step off teenhood. Yes, I’m turning 20. TWENTY. o_O;;
I’m still in disbelief, actually. Time definitely flies. It almost just feels like yesterday when I was just a little girl. A girl who was such a baby and cried a lot. A girl who at 4, believed that happiness was all about barbies and pretty dolls. A girl who once got her feet stuck in mud, ankle deep, because she played tag with her neighbours, even if her mother ordered her not to. A girl who fell off and broke her bike at 7 and got an open wound on her right thigh, because, again, she was hard-headed and didn’t listen to her mom when she told her not to go out biking. A girl who in third grade, would spend break time under the school stairs with her close friends, eating bananaque and sipping a bottle of mirinda. A girl who at a young age, enjoyed travelling and seeing different places.
Then I turned into a teenager. A teenager who went through so many crushes, and puppy loves. A teenager who enjoyed jungle trekking, abseiling, swimming in the rapids, diving in puddles of mud and going on the flying fox. A teenager who was sporty and got herself into dancing, basketball, swimming, tennis, gymnastics, soccer, volleyball, taekwondo, baseball and a couple of other sports. A teenager who had strong faith in her religion and was an active youth in church. A teenager who loved to talk and was always getting in trouble in class for being so loud. A teenager who was “angelic,” but at the same time, had a “wild” side. A teenager who fell in love and realized that happiness wasn’t about barbies and pretty dolls anymore. A teenager who got hurt, failed and cried; who got frustrated, depressed and disappointed, but managed to deal each situation with optimism and was able to stand up in the end.
Ahh, I can’t believe that it’s been years since those things happened. They still seem so fresh in my mind. It’s funny how I used to think that when I finally turn 17, I’d feel all grown-up. That I’d feel all matured and act like one of those adults I used to look up to. I turned seventeen 3 years ago, but, somehow I don’t feel that much different. Yes, I guess I have matured in one way or another. My interests have somewhat changed. My outlook in life, more feasible and realistic. Yet I still feel like the little girl that I once was. The teenager that I once was. Yeh, I’m still the “angel-but-wild” person that I’ve alwayes been. The girl who can sometimes be hard-headed, still lingers in me too. ^^;; hehe. I guess some things don’t change. ^__^
Look at me now. I’m a few weeks away from becoming a real adult. I’m sure a whole box of frustrations, obstacles and responsibilities await me. I know my life ahead won’t be all smooth-sailing. But, whatever happens, something that I’ve always been will remain. That’s the belief in myself and the optimism I choose to live by. ^_,~;;
Adulthood, here I come. ;)
Anna. 25. 
